I was doing tummy time with Gideon today when I began to ask myself, "Why do I do this to him?" I mean, you have to understand, my kids both scream like CRAZY during tummy time. Well, Bella did and Gideon does. It stinks. It gives me a headache, it makes them fussy, and it seems to take forever for even just 5 minutes to pass.
However, I quickly answered my own question with, "Because it's good for him, just as it was with Bella." Ugh. I guess it's just an example of a rough introduction to the reality of life that sometimes we have to do things that are not so much fun in order to learn and grow in ways that benefit us.
This is so true of so much. I think back to marriage counseling, moving from Boston to TN, separating from my parents many times and many ways, apologizing to friends, trusting Christians...all things that have been hard at the time, but proven exponentially beneficial in different ways. I have found that when I stop resisting these kinds of things, and embrace them, I actually don't mind the growth process so much. But when I resist with a hardened heart, I still grow, but in a much different way.
Another, less profound, thing in my life right now that relates to this is trying to be disciplined in going to the gym. Less than half of my wardrobe fits me right now. But I definitely do NOT have the extra money to get new clothes. However, I do pay for a gym membership. So if I could simply discipline myself to use that and go to the gym, then my clothes would inevitably fit again. So why, when my alarm goes off at 6am, do I hit the snooze??? Sighhhh. I am going to get better though...you just wait! Well, I'm at least going to try. And then I am going to give myself some grace and keep wearing the same few things that I can get over my butt while I remember that most of my friends in Uganda only have two outfits...one they wash while they are wearing the other. :/
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